Attitudes, Behaviors and Habits

Phillipians 2:5 "Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus"

Another reason to study the Bible, and Christ's character, so that we can be more like him.  Mounds of research shows how attitude is directly affective on behavior and has links to our health.  More and more chronic illnesses and increases in behavioral issues can be positively impacted by changing the attitudes of the families and communities the afflicted live in.                              

                                                                  ATTITUDE


                                                           by: Charles Swindoll

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.

Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home.

The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude... I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.

And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes.

                                               More great quotes by Charles R. Swindoll


We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations.


We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.

When I think of vision, I have in mind the ability to see above and beyond the majority.

When you have vision it affects your attitude. Your attitude is optimistic rather than pessimistic.

Words can never adequately convey the incredible impact of our attitudes toward life. The longer I live the more convinced I become that life is 10 percent what happens to us and 90 percent how we respond to it.

Read more: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/c/charles_r_swindoll.html#ixzz1gFzgv4xB



Our human minds are wonderous control centers of our lives.  Our psychological functions and their effect on our behaviors has facinated me since I was little.  I love to talk to people about what the know (have learned), believe, experiences and how they use these things to construct their behaviors and habits that have formed as a result.

I love to clarify definitions so that everyone means the same thing and everyone can understand correctly.  Many times you can trace conflicts back to a miscommunication or misexecution.  If we took more time to make sure we say what we mean and that others understand us correctly there would be less disappointment and conflict because someone "THOUGHT" differently than what we had stated.

If you identify your goals and/or desired traits you can examine what someone who possesses the trait you want and what you need to change to develop the desired trait and make it an attribute.

Attitudes of Highly Creative People--
http://www.problogger.net/archives/2007/05/09/9-attitudes-of-highly-creative-people/

Health issues help redefine Psalm 23

Psalm 23 has always been a favorite of mine.  Chucked full of visual pictures of lessons learned and to be learned.  Everytime something in life brings me to it, a different part strikes me.  Last year I was in a bible study in which we talked about sheep and their relationship with the shepherd and it really made this passage so much more meaningful and as I looked over my "personalized" versions they too became deeper and more precious.

The Passage as is from New King James Version
Psalm 23 1-6
The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your Staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil.
My cup runs over,
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD
Forever.

WELL.... that takes a few minutes to chew on...  grrrr.. grumble.... !!$%& **** grumble grumble, why me, why not healing, ..... whine, grumble, doubt (YES christians do doubt...some admit it... some don't... but, HE WILL NOT let us go to far down in our personal pit, before He forces us to jump up in His Loving, Comforting, Nuturing arms to talk our minds back into alignment with our hearts.

Everyone does not get the "miracle" of one minute the doctors are sure you have a tumor or condition, you go through alittle treatment, lots of prayer and viola' your healed!  We all hope for that and when it is for the Glory it happens, but.. Faith is built through the trials..  and sometimes the trial is the "uncertainty and the bound to be bad--clearly impossible situations to amazing results, and sometimes it is the quiet, personal "trials with unseen illness or circumstances that challenge you even more..  but all the situations are within HIS power, HIS knowledge and HIS delivering. 

Oh yeah, using all the scriptures and a few in more than one application are sometimes necessary to get us to draw nearer to Him, but when we "Walk by FAITH and show ourselves knowledgable and understanding that HIS ways are not our ways, and HIS timing is always perfect and that HE WILL NEVER forsake us and is always working things to bless us (not our bank accounts, personal portfolio's or other worldly things but our spiritual being) it becomes "Well with our soles and we can see our situation written within the scriptures like a vine is wrapped around a grape vine to make a beautiful and fruitful display of a "Divine teaching".

                                                   ~~My Personal Version of Psalms 23~~

The Lord is my Shepherd (my keeper and caregiver, herding and gathering me from the thickets I get myself into when I run in the wrong directions)
I shall not want (cause I want what I want and what I think, feel, am told, is best for me)
He makes me to lie down (rest, separate and just BE (not do things) in green pastures (wide open places, not crowded offices, stores, crisis situations, ect..)
He leads me beside the still waters. (not the rapids, the ocean, the sea... but the SMALL creeks that he takes me to, "waterbottle"!)
He restores my soul, (so little is restored in our world, medically alot of essential vitamins, enzymes and hormones are depleted and then replaced but GOD SAYS HE RESTORES!) (He created me, He knows how much of what I am to contain to be fruitful and fulfill the purpose He created me for, so if I don't have the right enzyme or hormone than I don't need it for what I am going to be lead by Him to do.. I am normal! in HIM, with HIM and for HIM.. He is for me so what can come against me to destroy HIM and ME???)
He leads me in the paths of righteousness (this one always got me?? what??? in paths of righteousness?? He makes us righteous when we follow HIS WILL, His precerts and commandments--(LOVE!) deet dah deet!!! oh... If I follow where he leads me I am on the path of righteous!!!!  "in the LORD I have righteousness Isaiah 45:24, He who follows righteousness Proverbs 21:21; the way of righteousness is life Proverbs 12:26.)
For His name's sake. (I am called by His name, I am His Child!!!)

Yea, though I walk through the valley [dark low place between mountains] of the shadow of death (depression, despair,...uncertainty.. any times of doubt, when our lighted path seems low, unprepared, tough to travel, dark and lonely)
I will fear no evil;  (Be anxious for nothing!) For I KNOW MY GOD REIGNS!!!
For You are with me;
Your rod (correction) and Your staff (finger reaching in medication bottle, medical devices, heating pad, a cane other things used to grab and direct us) they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies, ( :) promise of provision and of reward regardless of "Public opinion", what the world denied and removes from me, God will lay before me.
You anoint my head with oil; (refreshment, protection, MASSAGE!!!)
My cup runs over.  (FILL IT UP LORD! my physical cup to keep my nutrition and fluid levels correct, my life with be full, without my "doing anything!" He fills me..
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me (He is good and His mercies are new everyday!)
All the days of my life;  (My days are are in His Hands, He knew before I was born how long I was going to live and It is His job to teach and provide for me to fulffill the purpose for which I was created.  If I am obedient HIS WILL, will be fullfilled! My purpose will be what He desires for it to be and in the proper timing, so if I haven't already done the great work I was created...I am promised it is coming, He is preparing the way and lighting the path..)
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD (promise that once you enter into the 'house of the LORD, you are always in there, and HE IS IN YOU.. HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS!.
Forever!  (Eternal Life!!!)

Plans, Dreams, Disappointments... Delays, Deeper Desires, Delivery of Promised Goods!!!

WAIT! WAIT! WAIT!

Uggh... I AM NOT PATIENT! and I learned not to pray for things I do not want to "receive" the difficult way!

When you ask for wisdom, God teaches you complex, and difficult lessons to show you how to screen, prove and validate lots of views, and types of information.

When you ask to be more polite and meek... oh yeah, God brings the "difficult and challenging" (to love) people and puts you both in situations that give you the choice to "become polite and meek" or continue "telling it like it is, because IT IS THE TRUTH!".

Feeling abit lost and disgruntled and trying to throw myself a good olde' pity party. I use to be pretty successful, so I figured I tried everything else.. why not "Party" alittle and right in the middle, God busted it up with a belly laugh.. and a glimpse of hope that maybe all is not lost on the dream. :)

Searching for something else, found this... to some it makes no sense, but to me.. it means alot! http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/0092656687900067


All can find confirmation and encouragement in any circumstance, if you want to.. Ask and listen and WAIT! and you will receive.

As It Is Written in the Holy Scriptures in Jeremiah 29:11 (My additions, personalized for my purpose, you can define it for you! it is your message from HIM too.)
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil (or punishment or calamity), to give you a future and a hope. 12) Then you will call upon Me (not Oprah, Dr. Phil, or anyone else on earth) and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. 13) And you will seek Me and find ME (not riches, answers, the lotto numbers, a new...) when you search for ME with all your heart. 14) I will be found by you, says the LORD, and I will bring you back from your captivity (stupidity, pity party... )I will gather you from all the nations (whatever seems to have you instead of the promise land you thought you were heading to; (housing, jobs, situations, ..) and from all the places (all the closed doors, movements from something, NO!'s, losses....) where I have driven you, says the LORD, an I will bring you to the place from which I cause you to be carreid away captive.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~&~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ On the wings of Love! Soaring like an eagle ~~~~&~~~~


Doh! :)

The Joy of Job Hunting and letting 1 page; 8 x 11 represent me... Oh my!

The ironic things in life..

As soon as we are able to do so, we begin building our resume with Education, Experiences and Work History to show our dedication, diligence and desire to be productive and efficient.

        Then, when you REALLY REALLY (want) NEED! a job we try to format this 8 X 11 sheet of paper with creative formating and spacing, well crafted wording to get us a phone call.

Momma and Daddy always taught us to be HONEST and Forth coming, don't embellish or over state your abilities or knowledge.
           In this world this can destine you to entry level (LOWER Paying) jobs, if you get hired at all.  Because they are expecting "EVERYONE" to embellish alittle and so when you don't you look less than what is stated.

        I became desperate and curious to know what in the heck is going on with my non existent interview schedule. I mean things change all the time but 10 years ago, the few times I was unemployed I left the home at 8 am with the resumes, newspaper and list of appointments and by 5 pm that night I had offers or promises of calls for the next day. Now I am having few calls and interviews that are clearly (what do you look like, ethnicitiy and age) meet and greet. Weeks go by before they let me know I am not being selected.

SO... I got bold and called a recruiter to find out what the others had that I did not.. and OH MAN! OUCH....

THE RESUME! Have someone look at it, it is outdated and too informative, they don't need to interview you cause it is all spelled out and you gave them references. So they interview the other candidates to get a better idea of them and end up selecting someone they "SEE".
((WRONG, AGAIN! by Martina McBride began playing in my head ~~~~~))

OH MY ....! UGGGGG. I followed advisement and recommendations from school and cannot believe this could be so bad that it is preventing people from seeing they NEED ME!

So I got bolder and had a friend look at it, and well, IT WAS THAT BAD :(((
"NO WONDER YOUR NOT GETTING MANY CALLS!" in 2 hours we complete rewrote my resume into a powerful 1 page concise sampling of my expertise and experience.

The hardest thing about the whole experience, as great as the 3 of many employment experiences are, they were not the bulk of my work history, nor the most important roles that show my character, integrity, work and social ethics. They are not the things I want to be known for, no!  those are the very first things that are removed as "incidental or too personal" and that do not matter to recruiters, employers, or mostly anyone else...(SERIOUSLY IRONIC that my whole being was built and designed to be these roles and the learning and experiences gained in these roles should be recognized.. (Abilitiy to follow instructions, Work Independently, Team Player, Able to resolve conflict and problem solve on the spot,...)

Daughter of 41 years, Sister for 33, 31 and 30 years, Girlfriend of 3.5 years, Wife of 19 years, Daughter and Sister-in-law off 19 years, Working mother for 5 years, Homeschool mom of 5 years, Self taught Medical Biller, CPT & ICD-9 coder, EMT (licensed but never ran due to becoming pregnant), ACTIVE and AVAILABLE Friend and Volunteer, Creator/Facilitator of many groups and cooperative events.  Avid student/reader/researcher and Continuing Education Participant.

So much work goes into becoming individualized and unique in our teens and Young Adult days only to work to becoming as much like everyone else in our middle ages. Self starter, Motivated and Efficient Producer use to be notable qualities and desired "BUZZ WORDS" on resumes.

All this work to obtain a job that is going to take the majority of my day and evening, consume much of my thoughts and precious energy. The newly acquired coworkers and management will become the beneficiaries of my talents, skills and time. Therefore, I am selective in the "opportunities" I choose to venture into, looking for a complementary experience that will be a natural addition to my resume and life. Suddenly it seems as though the world has changed completely and not for the good. All thoughts, and actions are about securing professional and financial security, having to relinquish control and influence over not just my life, schedule and future but also that of my family, all for a paycheck that is reduced by a government that follows none of my beliefs, or ethics and wastes the money on inappropriate expenditures.

But I am strong and will work to obtain what my family and I need/want.  I can and will balance this heart breaking shift and we will become more secure, loving and efficient for all the efforts.

Encouraging Scriptures:
And I will make thee to this people a fortified brazen wall: and they shall fight against thee, but they shall not prevail against thee: for I am with thee to save thee and to deliver thee, saith the LORD. (Jeremiah 15:20) http://bible.cc/jeremiah/15-20.htm


 
they have greatly oppressed me from my youth, but they have not gained the victory over me (Psalm 129:2)  http://bible.cc/psalms/129-2.htm  



For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11) http://bible.cc/jeremiah/29-11.htm 


But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31) http://bible.cc/isaiah/40-31.htm 



We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. (2 Corinthians 4:8) http://bible.cc/2_corinthians/4-8.htm

Somedays Life is like Rock Climbing \.or Hiking, and other days it is quietly waiting .but always an adventure..

Life is compared to many things.  Especially in terms of Spiritual endeavors it is referred to several analogies; Walking a path, Walking in the dark, Walking on the beach (footprints), Sitting in the meadows, Time outs (Jonah and the tool shed).  Everyone has to find their analogy and image to help them in times of struggle, doubt, and disappointment.  So often the analogy vaporizes and your standing around trying to figure out "What's next", sometimes feeling like ducking to avoid "the other shoe from smacking you in the head".  Some days I feel like I am living out the Country Song "I will Pray for you".. (but I know God does not honor such prayers, and much like Wonderwoman's "bullet proof wrist bands" defeats bullets and weapons formed against us.. and what he does for us we can do for others.  If we will.

Life..can be as secure and clear as an indoor rock climbing wall.  No matter what comes the rope is attached to the top and the belayer (and the hook in the floor) have the other end to "control the possible fall and steady your body so you can cling to the rock..  The Climb is not as much about the appearance, or the likelihood you can make it.. it is about suiting up and getting in the position to climb and "praying you can get up the rock without killing yourself or the poor little teenaged belayer.  Once you lift and reach for the first handle and take that first step.. you have rock climbed.. Then the insanity and excitement that you actually did it takes over and you take another step.  Life is a process and it may take a few times to get to the desired level or position on the rock but.. no matter where you end up, you Rock Climbed.. You Lived!



Other times it is like Hiking out in the open, but the path is set also, you start at the point were you park like at Stone Mountain and proceed up a "cleared and marked path"  there are paths off the main path but they all lead either toward the top or back down to the parking lot and you can start over again and avoid the detours and just follow the straightened path.

The view from the top is quite different than from below or from the side. and Pictures don't fully capture the awe and beauty of the climb, the exhileration and pride of making it up and the remembrance of the experience and the ones that climbed with us.  The pictures are great to remind of us all that was involved with the moment and to help us encourage ourselves to reclaim that determination, enjoyment and satisfaction.

Times to sit and take a break together, and give the camera man time to enjoy the fact he is ready to continue and has not been phased by the journey that nearly killed his "YOUNGER" teammates :).

Fears conquerred, physical limitation overcome and beauty captured all in one journey and a picture to remember it all. 

Time outs, with purpose and personal goals and desires.  The attempts to physically capture the beauty with that which God has given me.  An artist I AM NOT! but I WANT TO BE able to draw a stick, rock, and a puddle and have it be able to resemble such.. still trying :)..  But scratching a pencil or marker acrossed a piece of paper to make marks in the shape of what I see, I am able to do and I see what they were (with the help of pictures attached :).

Who in the heck is in charge of this mess????? and whom am I in all this???

Ever asked yourself this question, "Who in the heck is in charge of this mess??? and whom am I in all this???".  Fear of having to do the right thing UNDER people...and living right in the midst of chaos and uncertainty, consequences of others...  Wanting to be encouraging, supportative and helpful but also want to be truthful and not "enable" or cover for people who continue to do what they want, or what prospers them regardless of the effect on others.

                               Oh what is a 'girl' to do???? 

Wisdom is the first trait and plea of many.  When we look at people we want to see them as wise, especially if the are leaders and if we can't see their wisdom we usually run from them or refuse to acknowledge them as the leader.

One of the prominent and highly esteemed people in the Bible, Job asked a similar question about Wisdom:
But where shall wisdom be found? And where is the place of understanding?   Wisdom is a gift from God, received by those who notice they are lacking and ask for it, as written in James 1:5,  Wisdom is attained when we desire to think like God, for which we need knowledge of Him, His ways and His assistance to keep us from corrupting or manipulating the Truth and Righteousness of His Word.

We are instructed to Trust and Obey and we are often provided examples of Submission and Servants.  Many instuctional scriptures are addressed or referring to Bondservants...like

Ephesians 6:5-7   Bondservants, be obedient to those what are your masters, according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in sincerity of heart, as to Christ; not with eyeservice, as men-pleasers, but as bondservants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, with goodwill doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men, knowing that whatever good anyone does, he will receive the same from the Lord, whether he is a slave or free.

I am very much an authoritive junky, I want to know the Hierarchy of a family, group, organization or whatever I am getting involved with.  I like to ask what it is, and then see how people respond to the authority figures and see who is "really in charge"!.  See how efficient and loyal everyone is in the submissive and problem resolution activities.  How strong and ethical is the leader and how strong and ethical are the subordinates? 

It is easy to follow someone in the good times but what happens when troubles come?  And when all heck breaks loose what happens then.  The blame game, the foot stomping and yelling "I am in charge here and you WILL DO, what I say!" (even if you have to do unethical things and then be blames for going rouge, cause "I am a good leader and person and I WOULD NEVER DO that!" )

Well in times of frustration and doom and gloom I gravitate to I Peter 3 and think about the whole relationship example of a marriage and of the relationship of the church and God. (talk about problem solving skills, ha ha).  I have used these passages for years and then saw something new and quite telling.. (ut oh, Lesson 1 million 101!) "Seek and ye shall find, Ask and it will be given to you! ha ha.. (Thanks, God I needed that :)!

I memorize scripture and then I have a terrible habit of paraphrasing and changing the words, which as a "Good Magister" would say changes the meaning, and that every letter and word is used for a reason.  Read it, understand it and deal with it the way it is, don't change it to make it fit your purpose or make it more comforting.  (Hmm..) ok.. So I reread it from scripture and viola' what do you know I was missing a huge chunk and the very answer I was looking for....  who knew ....

 1 Peter 3:5,6 as it is written (NKV)  For in this manner, (see verse 4) in former times, the holy women who trusted in God also adorned themselves, being submissive to their own husbands, as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord, who daughters you are if you do good and are not afraid with any terror.

WOW~~~~~  wait a minute let that sink in a minute!.  woosh...............................................................

I memorized the first part and had omitted a bit.. Oops :(   let's look at this again...

1 Peter 3:5,6 as it is written (NKV)
For in this manner, (see verse 4) in former times, the holy women who trusted in God also adorned themselves, being submissive to their own husbands, as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord, who daughters you are if you do good and are not afraid with any terror.



okay.. those that know me know that of all the people and stories in the Bible I have had the hardest time with Abraham and Sarah, ESPECIALLY that she called him "lord", I thought that was a bit confusing and sacreligious.. "LORD" is how we refer to God and why would a mortal man be given this honor... especially the ones I have seen.  I love my husband but... I did not think he has esteemed to "Lord" status yet.. and I certainly didn't see where Abraham had.. (and God asked, and WHO asked YOU whom YOU thought deserved and earned titles I provided them just as I gave you yours! ~~~HMMMMM.... idk....)

Off to my dictionary I went... to see what the original meaning of Lord was, as it has the Heirish sound to it, Medival times... Ancient honor and respect...  this was cool, yet a bit.. (UHHH huh ...ut oh.. got some digging to do and some spring cleaning of heart and mind..to clean up and adjust the attitude..)

There are many notable meanings and uses for lord and when you add "MY" to it.. which was customarily used as the salutation or greeting.. "My lord". http://www.thefreedictionary.com/lord (THIS IS KIND OF COOL.. and as women we want to be QUEEN or at minimum PRINCESS, which we claim as our linkage to GOD, KING OF KINGS" well being married gives us a linkage too...)

The meanings/usages that stood out to me were.....
My ---- is possessive of I (mine); modifier (as a CPC coder I love modifiers!! the define and specify procedures and conditions :);  polite, affection, or familiar; Interjection !; determiner;

Lord ---- A man of high rank (he is a son of the KING of KINGS); Territorial magnate (we all know men are territorial/possessive) ; Prorietor of a manor... (HMMMM.. I am a firm believer of calling "IT" like it is, using proper words and terms and on this alone, I have some "splaining to do, ha ha I am so Lucillish/"

Okay.. this part kind of got me right in the pride bone... and brought a tear to my eye..
   Masculine title of nobilty ( ewww that sounds like if you don't use it ...you demasculate... (ut oh... that is like UHT OHHHHH!)
  ***Courtesy title for a son of a Duke or Marquis (under a count.. ha ha.. made me think of count dracula on Seseem Street) 
               Man of renowed power or authority (eee.. I give him power and authority sometimes.. (to get me out of trouble ...:) 
               Male head of household
                A Husband   --- (well, now isn't that funny... [not ha ha.. but ironic..] if for no other reason... uh I see where this is going and it isn't going to be comfortable or involve shoes.. (here I go..down to the knees of confession, AGAIN!)
A person who has power or authority over others such as a monarch or master (young male)! (OUCH!!!) how often have I said to him, YOU SON!  Your HOUSE, ....  or the one or two times he has had others come to him and say "THAT WIFE of YOURS, or that Son of yours"..  Hmmmm...

Good news is He is the King of our house, and of this Queen..( a King has to have a Queen.. even a Prince needs a Princess.. lucky for Him, I am a Princess, Daughter of the King of Kings.)

So the answer to the Question above is, God is in control, IF I submit to Him and those authority figures that He has placed in my path.. not because they "deserve or qualify for the courtesy or esteem" but because I TRUST and OBEY HIM!  This world was Created by HIM and is still HIS, but this is not the Garden of Eden, perfect, and abundant with ease and no pain, struggles, confusion..  Great Great Grandma Eve bit that fruit of promise of Knowing all.. and well now we know stuff we wish we didn't and don't have just Wisdom (wise-thinking of true and right; method or way of doing;  http://www.thefreedictionary.com/wise Dom~  state or condition) http://www.thefreedictionary.com/wisdom


Life is a prepatory course...much like a feast is celebratory and memorializing of events...
Of all the tasks, building character is the most uncomfortable yet the most beneficial of all....
Losing selfishness, bitterness, and fear is the best weighloss program ever invented.. 

Choose Love, and the FRUITS OF THE SPIRIT not secrets, and empty words...Do you have a concealed Weapon permit for that tongue of yours???

Secrets can be "innocent" when just a privacy and modest thing.. but when they become bigger and darker and are used to be a cloak for bad behavior, hurting others, HYPOCRACY, AND LIES (which are SINS! if you are a believer..)  The human mind is a powerful machine that can be controlled by the environment it is operating in, it was designed in PARADISE, where Truth was as plentiful as the fresh air, beauty and innocent companionship and relationships were the "popular trends" before that "corruption" slide in.. today we have the same paradise and perfect conversations but the corruption and negative is more "popular" it blares on our radios, tv's and computers.  However, we can conquer the thoughts like it said that Jesus Christ conquered the GRAVE!, to Believe that and that I too will conquer someday is extremely powerful, inspiring and overwhelmingly encourages me to wholeheartedly, completely open my heart, mind and body to possible relationships to learn and experience a different flavor of the fruits in the garden, my GOD created.

Just because fear and evident anger and/or refusal of apology being accepted does not negate the need for the apology being offered and then it is YOUR responsibility to PRAY and Work to restore the relationship. Bad experiences, past experiences or whatever excuse (My family didn't take about feelings, I am ... and don't trust, discuss, I need ... or else I can't let people in)

  One secret can set off a domino effect that destroys so much... needlessly... (Remember! there are no secrets that no one knows... someone knows...)

When love is active and true ...there are no secrets!  Even if the person won't "Listen" (the advanced act of hearing and interpreting auditory information) speaking the Truth sets you free from the destructive habit of withholding information, and keeps you from allowing your heart to become hardened and bitter.  Having to wear your armor all the time, even in close relationships and intimite moments.   If the other person in the relationship won't hear and Listen.  There is someone who hears..cares..loves and will honor you and the commitments that others have made...  He Provides...He Heals...He Protects... Always share your heart with HIM, clean out the hurts.. the "DARK" feelings, plans for revenge, wishes to get "what you deserve"! 

He continually stretches us and draws us to look above our circumstances, our hurts, our struggles.. Never GIVE UP, ALWAYS GIVE YOUR BEST and ALWAYS RISE UP, in Prayer, Praise, and Perseverance.

Love Endures...(Won't quit)  
Love DOES NOT FAIL..
Love Lifts you up..

Secrets, regrets, confessions, apologies.....  why are we so hung up on these huge wastes of time, if there is no action toward change.  The most hurtful and aggrevating thing as a friend is to have to witness and hear repeated secrets, conspiracies to hurt others, or plans to withhold talents, gifts and affections in order to gain control of another person.  Oh, how a heart SCREAMS in pain from the effects ...  even worse when you are the target of the meaningless apologies and consistent secrets of hateful and "DARK" feelings against others who wrong you, but yet you are never wrong enough to apologize. 

Where is the grace???  where is the understanding???  How can you say you LOVE, CARE and are KIND when you will KILL someones spirit, level a persons character and shake someone to the core, causing them to completely doubt and question the fundamental beliefs.  Is there really "Justification" of behaviors like this?  Where is that written in the "HOLY SCRIPTURES" cause I am so wanting to find the path so many are on.  I have gone to Lifeway several times looking in all the new translations but the all read the same as my old and well worn Bible.  

Breaking promises, refusing to grant requests (simple and should be easily done) CONSISTENTLY.  Defacing a person in private is just as disgusting, disrespectful and painful.  If only the Golden Rule, Common Courtesy and Honorable treatment of others would come back into "popular trends" it would be awesome and not a moment too soon.

When you are loved, accepted and CHERISHED you don't need to keep secrets, and confessions should come from the heart and be something "You WANT to DO!" cause you know you OWE the other person the restorative action, which is like placing a pressure dressing on their wounded heart.  Continued denials, ignoring of requests and needs, lack of care (the feelings not the physical serving), being treated as a burden and an unwanted obligation makes one feel just that..REJECTED..IGNORED and UNWANTED...

One Republic

Secrets lyrics

I need another story

Something to get off my chest

My life gets kinda boring

Need something that I can confess



'Til all my sleeves are stained red

From all the truth that I've said

Come by it honestly I swear

Thought you saw me wink, no

I've been on the brink, so



Tell me what you want to hear               (THE TRUTH, LOVINGKINDNESS....)

Something that will like those ears

Sick of all the insincere

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



This time

Don't need another perfect lie

Don't care if critics ever jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



My God

Amazing that we got this far

It's like we're chasing all those stars

Driving shiny big black cars



And everyday I see the news, all the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises, just write it into an album

Seen it straight to gold

I don't really like my flow, no, so

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/one_republic/secrets.html ]

Tell me what you want to hear

Something that will like those ears

Sick of all the insincere

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



This time

Don't need another perfect lie

Don't care if critics ever jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



Oh, got no reason, got not shame


Got no family I can blame


Just don't let me disappear


I'mma tell you everything



So tell me what you want to hear

Something that will like those ears

Sick of all the insincere

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



This time

Don't need another perfect lie

Don't care if critics ever jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



So tell me what you want to hear

Something that will like those ears

Sick of all the insincere

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



This time

Don't need another perfect lie

Don't care if critics ever jump in line

I'm gonna give all my secrets away



All my secrets away

All my secrets away  



I would rather have your heart...  even the dark stuff has to "lighten" soon....  If it is the truth, hand it over I can handle it ~~I have help (and He already knows).  But best of all, I truly care and Love the person not what the have or their title, reputation, connections, ect.. I don't need details... I just need commitment to turn from (THAT) and commit to honest communication.  Take alittle time with someone else and put up with alittle yuck.. cause someone took your yuck... and still cared and remained friends, became your wife, mother, daughter, sister, cousin, aunt,, whatever... 

" I only ask for what I deserve...(what you have committed or promised) Am I the problem? Golden Rule..part 2..Mean what you say !

People crack me up, down and sideways..  they willl take everything, moment and thing you offer AND THEN ASK and DEMAND more!!!!  They talk endlessly about, "we will do this, "  "We will go here", "We will sit down and review....talk....whatever"  "I LOVE YOU.. is a commitment and should mean something!

I make painful and diligent effort to communicate my commitment, participation, and intentions.  I am very careful with motives and manipulation (even the innocent (which there is no such thing in the "earthly realm") I am cautious of asking for things, time or otherwise, not wanting someone to do something for me that they are going to resent or didn't really want to do, but.. "I was convincing..or because they loved me, cared.. whatever..)  Even though I do for others simply and promptly because I care for them, their family members whom the request is usually for, (but that is not my problem) and most importantly BECAUSE I CAN!.

If you are rewarded, recognized or otherwise compensated for effort, giving or care-- you can't "double dip" and expect someone to receive the "gift" and pay you back with ANYTHING and that should not be your sole attempt at showing your love (unless that is there 'Love Language' as described in Chapmans books)  It is not mine and I have never said I was bi or multi lingual and if you "know me", "love me" then speak my language!  If you have any question ask.. or read...look and see, I am not complicated.. I am pretentious, glamorous or "HIGH MAINTAINENCE" but even grass has "needs" and alittle care and nuturing makes a big difference..... If you cut it too often, too deeply, neglect it too much. it is not going to grow, remain functional or even remain available to protect your tromping tactical and destructive boots from getting muddy!.  This grass is quality and thriving despite poor treatment, maintainence and care and WILL KICK YOUR ...,  I am not the store bought, fake and fancy "sod" that is rolled out and becomes whatever you want whereever you want.  I am deep rooted, well established ground cover, planted before you were ever on this earth and will be here until the "Master Gardener" plucks me from here..  If you want the pleasure and continued support of the well nourished "growing, loving, giving ground cover then respect it, feed it and then you can continue to enjoy it.  If not, I will choke the mower and you will not continue to damage the roots and hurt the seedlings.

You know what your problem is?, you don't fight enough for what you want... Hmmm but maybe you just "Don't see, or know what I really want!"

Everyone has alot to say, especially when they think you could or should do something other than what you are doing.  If you are not chasing the same thing others in the group are, maybe you aren't like-minded.  Having all the toys and things the world has to offer makes you better to give... or it could make it harder.. if all your stuff isn't paid for and you have more debt that controls your time and mind.  Now a days the "democracy" way of thinking has creeped into all aspects of life.. "Education, Healthcare, Medical Procedures, Government, Legal Proceedings, Marriage, Employment, Child Raising...Church leadership, Ministry...everything is a debate and a fight of wills and human intellect but as soon as you answer the questions. 

What were you thinking?  How can you keep accepting this behavior?  Why don't you give them a piece of your mind.. (which is my favorite! to which....I like to say it is not mine to give away and then I would only have "part of my brain left for the next debate and would be less intellectual than my opposer.).  The weight of public opinion in heavy...but the weight of unfulfilled expectations or desires of family and friends is crushing sometimes...  but Hope is in the WORD~~1 Peter 5:7! and Psalms 139:1-16, 23-24, Proverbs 1:7

I have several videos, songs and verses that I use to encourage myself and others when we are under criticizim for something and are called to explain ourselves or defend our motives, actions and beliefs.  I have learned through several painful situations that it is best not to defend yourself..  We say HE IS our all in all.  His ways are best and His hand is on our life and if we are whole heartedly living it and walking with HIM then talk to HIM and stay in HIS HANDS, Look to his Face and let them figure out what He says to them. 

The Golden RULE is the way to go... once you have been under the microscope and felt the "Burn of public opinion" and the spight of the grapevine and be voted out... Keep your focus, Joy and HEART !   You are a "wonderfully and fearfully made masterpiece"! and you are not finished yet!!!!!    But, you are not expected by the Creator, to complete the work that he started in you.  HE IS GOING TO COMPLETE you!  HE IS THE ALL IN ALL.  He layed the cornerstone and that is not just a word, it is "The ONE" that came in John 3:16. and once that belief...is then put into action by growing, TRUSTING HIM!, LOVING HIM with all your heart, your mind and your body.  Not your mates, your friends, your children's...  YOU do your right work to work out YOUR faith and salvation.. as He leads YOU! share and encourage others to try your path if they haven't found one yet.. but help them to connect and find their way.  Conflict and hurt feeling is usually a sign someone is not wearing the Armor fully, has an unconfessed matter to take up with God, who will lead them to restore relationship damaged by their wrong doing, or someone is working outside of the Design plan.  all of which will be revealed through prayer. Which we are supposed to be doing ceaselessly.


I see fine.. and I am ok just the way I am, or GOD will let me know... I have purpose and power given to me by my maker and this world nor anyone in it can take that from me by using my faults, treasures or fears against me.  He IS ABLE TO MAKE THINGS WORK FOR MY GOOD! and THINGS and Weapons formed against me will not profit, things meant to be a curse or hurt will be turned to good and not harm.  According to his promises, which I have FAITH AND HOPE in and through them.

Here are my favorite videos and songs I shared this morning on facebook....  Let it be  ~&~ is my new favorite, several songs I have used as inspiration for years! and some see it others don't yet but they will "someday".   http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/dot.wiggins.92  


If we aren't already friends, send me a friends request :) 

"If you want to make God laugh tell Him your plans", and thinking ~~If you want to make yourself laugh, write them down! :0

Going through the .... and desperately wanting to get something accomplished; I started reviewing my lists and notes to see what needs to be kept and what I just need to let go of, as "good thought then, but now just a roadblock and clutter".

Second thing I picked up is one of my notebooks and on it was a "writing, and a dot ditty".. too funny... I remember this day and the circumstances and oh how the world turns your mind and heart "round and round" over and over until you decide to shorten the distance of your chain on HIS end and then the Miracles can touch your LIFE like a fresh breeze~~.

08/08/08  Able to do or Talented for.....  Why if I am able can I not, yet someone who is Talent can at all cost?  If I am talented at nothing then I am obligated to do nothing???? 

oh no.. not so quickly....  Standing on the promises...is how I have lived this far, Claiming my talents if nothing more than caregiving and encouraging.  I know this is enough, as it is all I promised...

1 Peter 1:17-18    And if you call on the Father, who without partiality judges according to each one's work, conduct yourselves throughout the times of your stay "here" knowing that you were not redeemed with corruptable things, like silver or gold from your aimless conduct "received" by traditions from your fathers, But with the precious blood of Christ as a lamb without blemish and without spot.

We all have been blessed with:
Abil i ties:  What we are able to do to bond things (or) people together.   :) 

T ale nts:  (ALE) enjoyments and relaxations, flowing effort,   Recognized for... like singers, writers, performers ect... who do things that come easy or that they enjoy.

Skills (work) kill laziness, we may receive "recognition" as a leader or director of a work project or function. But with a heart felt commitment to being Able and for giving proper recognition to whom the ability came the miracle of unity can occur and all the glory and fame of all the workers is given to Him, which works like a ray of sun traced back to the "core" or center of the Sun.

I may not feel talented at anything, seldom able to do much, but willing to do what I can because He made me that way and when I am too tired or otherwise, He is Able to do more with me, in me, for me and EVEN BEHIND me (clean up)! that I can even imagine..AS IT IS WRITTEN!!!!! (somewhere in the Holy Scriptures).

                                                    If Only I Could, .... But You Can....
                                                                   by me,  2008

                     If only my heart was as big as my mouth
                     If only I would act like I think
                     If only I could do, have, be, and/or change .................

                     If only I could trust someone AND not be hurt
                     If only I would trust you, GOD
                     If only my spirit could control my brain
                     If only I could erase my negative thoughts
                     If only I could change all that is wrong with me as pointed out by others

                                      I can't..................... But, YOU CAN!...

              You can make me whole....Healed...Beautiful...Intellectual....and........
              You can transform the dust into a new woman, pleasing and strong
              You can make my heart larger by softening and opening it
              You can make my mouth gentle and sweet
              You can make my mind be more like yours (Phillipians 4:4-8)
              You can make me rest so that I can heal and you can make me trust freely and open
               You can make me the woman you designed me to be (Proverbs 31, and Titus 2)
                     

                                            You can and will as soon as ......
                I lay down the life you gave me and let you clean and restore and seal it......
                I open my heart and mind you can clear away the junk and corruption
               I am here, my life is yours take it and make it what it can be to glorify you...


1 Peter 2:4-5

Coming to Him as a living stone, rejected indeed by men, but chosen by God and precious, you also, as living stones, are being built up a spiritual house, a holy priesthood, to offer up spiritual sacrafices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.

My body's Knots gave me an idea (~)~Knots on a string that will bring enjoyment and profit.

Well I decided I am not going to keep letting others impact my recovery from this Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia flare up.  I do for others and now I must do for myself.  I have to follow the diets and get the exercise I can and when I can't move and do what others think I could/should or would be doing.  Rest and Relaxing, Exercising and Stretching so that the knots in my body stop wrecking my sleep and causing me pain and weakness.

I started reorganzing some of my stuff that I planned on working on and found my Rope, String, Wire, and beads and found some encourangement and hopefully some answers to the need for income until I find a "Real" job.  I have applied for more part-time or temporary work that I even want to see in writing, but have been avoiding going for the full time and/or Medical Positions until I was back on track.  Knowing how exhausted full days on my feet and then coming home to all the 'wants and needs' of the house and household occupants wore me down to this point.

How Poetic! Tied in knots and about to tie knots...

"Tie" ~~to bind, fasten, or attach with a cord, string, or the like, drawn together and knotted.

Knot ~~interlacing of a cord, rope, or the like, drawn tight into a knob or lump, for fastening two cords together or a cord to something else. farther down, in the defintions is the Anatomy/zoology: a protuberance or swelling on or in a part or process. as in a muscle. Nautical~~a unit of speed equal to one nautical mile or about 1.15 statue miles per hour.

I have made lots of changes, adjustments, sacrafices to heal and avoid having such a severe flare up again..
Found like pick-me ups and encouraging symbols for myself to help on the "bad days" and these are a few of the symbols I have fell in love with and received relief and encouragement from.

So we have "Strings of knots and hope"  When in need of Strength and Encouragement these 'laces can be worn or tied in bigger knots.  They are adjustable because they were tied and not glued or welded together, they are tied together.

Bead enveloped in "Nickel/Silver" metal resting place. on a black cord $10.00  This can be your "worry" or "stress" stone.

"Stength is a long journey but is a jewel in the end"  Black and silver "S" wooden bead with silver bead on the end.  $ 5.00

"S" Strength with 4 corner knotted pendent with 4 hooks for charms on the bottom.   $20.00

3 golden basket-woven bead that spin on a gold wire. Tied on a brown leather lace.  $10.00

Golden basket woven button earings.

$ 5.00

Email me for more information or to place an order.    Accept Paypal cash payments.

I Don't Understand you all either!...Oh, well! I think I am right and you think I am wrong, "Be Patient God Isn't Finished with me!" He takes suggestion!, Drop to you knees and He is listening! :)

"What are you saying? "
I can't understand you....you make no sense!

Who me?????  oh well, I will just chew my time!! you will learn soon :)!

If I had a dollar for everytime I heard this said to me I would be a millionaire !  (ha, ha.)






~~~~LIAR LIAR pants on FIRE!  I am going to take it to the wire! I speak English...and I mean what I say!

When I say I am a follower of Jesus Christ, I mean....
When I say I LOVE (verb!) you, I mean.....
When I say I am hurt by you, I mean....
  I am Presumptive that it was not intended the first time, habitual and consistent reoccurances, (offenses) makes me wonder...

I am consciously and diligently (TRYING!) to be, submissive to authority of my husband "As it is written in scripture!"(rightness or wrongness is not my job) inconvenience or unpopular opinion, is not my problem, I did what I was instructed to do...(unless is it a clear sin and then I am sacraficing by dealing with his wrath and doing what is right) so Judge me rightly! and put the stones down cause you know you are not without "wrongful stepping". 
I will pray for you ~~~you pray for me.  If you doubt me, ask him! (my husband) will proudly say, "Yes, I told her that..." and if not he should be warned the "Eve" is gathering dangerous apples.... he is the leader of our home.! (WARNING! You will probably be a bit surprised but he knows most of my actions and although he does not like it, I have discussed things with him. (although sometimes not fully enough to get my marching orders and full agreement, but I am human and I rectify the situations!)

Everyone has given me so much grief about not "understanding me" and that what I say "being utter nonsense". (NO ONE BELIEVES THAT OR DOES THAT!) 
             I began saying "Oh, I am sorry translation difficulties..I speak "Dot-ese (Like Japan ese or Chin ese.."refering to"-DOT.. but although my language of honesty, careful and meaningful speech that is backed with ethics and moral obligation is "UNIQUE" and unfamiliar to some, prior to 2000 this was my native language and shared language of my family, community.  I learned to speak this way from Ethical, Moral and Obligated people and therefore, "EMO" means a good thing to me.. as "happiness" is not a destination or process that I espire to.  And when the trials and struggles are raging and difficult the "outer appearance may not be "colorful or exciting" but the inner core is going to be all the better when "construction" is done!.  "Please be patient with me, God is not finished yet!" means more than a catchy phrase and popular song of the 80's!!!



I am speaking "English" and if you look up my words in a dictionary "Webster or Random House or whatever...the words I carefully and mindfully choose "word choice which is a mark of effective speaking" (over think, too deep for some peoples taste) but too bad, that is how I was taught,   I LOVE and RESPECT my parents still, even though I am grown and a mother myself.  The best way to HONOR our parents and reward them for the investment and guidance they gave us, (hopefully the introduction to Jesus Christ) and their ways were the ones written in the Holy BIBLE, if not, once you meet Jesus Christ at the Cross and accept HIM, and the gift of LIFE in HIM, you ADOPT His ways....


"My Momma (and Daddy) told me....!



"Don't say something if you don't understand it, and if you say it, then you are obligated to adhere to what you said (IF YOU SAY IT, MEAN IT, or mean what you say!). 
   The Bible says in the Ten Commandments and in several verses through out the text... "Children OBEY your parents...."  my favorite, the Most Detailed.. Ephesians 6:1 ~~ King James BibleIn the "olden days" a persons word was taken at "face value" based on that person's reputation, (history of standing on the promises and statements they made) further "assurance of the validability of there statements may require proof or confirmation of 2 or 3 other people testifying for or agreeing with the speaker (defendant).  This process was essential for daily life as a persons name and their word are the only things that could not be taken away.  Our legal system utilizes this "process", "professional organizations are based on the same premise, credentialing, verifications, credit reports convert this process into a numerical number that is used to judge a person and their "value and esteem  (second definition) due (slang/informal: clout) Random House College Dictionary, Revised Edition (C) 1980, pg 255 "Informal"


Children, obey your parents in the Lord: for this is right. 
   Now, notice there is a "Modifier (specification or clarifier) In the Lord! 


Who! CHILDREN,
WHAT----  OBEY your parents!
WHY------------------------------------ FOR IT IS RIGHT!
According to whom??? GOD! who is worthy to be Praise, Respected and Loved and parents are His Children and therefore are Worthy to be Respected and Loved...  (to show love you need to respect!) hint hint.  everytime you say you Love yet you respect and obey not you sin X3! and not just against your parents, .... You are sinning against GOD (x3) so for 1sinful act of disobedience (which contains lying, disrespect, and not showing love) now if the action is WRONG too (foul language, foolishness, unloving acts, violence ect..) well then you have quit a mess!.

As a parent we are Required to teach our children about God and His ways.  We are to not only share who God is, (Witnessing ourselves, not just taking them to others to "talk them into accepting Jesus Christ as their savior and get baptised and start serving at church and then order our fish for the back of our car and throw ourselves a party), Once they accept Him as their savior, we are to "Nourish them on their "daily bread" and help them sip from the Lords cup and grow in the Lord, just like we do for the "other new believers" at the church. 

The "job" of Parent is from sunrise to sunset and begins again when the sunrises the next morning.  And there are consequences for disobeying our "Heavenly Father", but the REAL consequences are for the child.
                          Deuteronomy 6:4-9 ESV “Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. (5) You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. (6) And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. (7) You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. (8) You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. (9) You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.


The very verse we quote to them to get our OBEDIENCE and Respect, has a part for us.  In English we like to have this separations and paragraphs however, in the original scriptures there are not separations and headings this passage is one whole writing! It makes so much more of an impact when it is reviews together and the RELATIONSHIP and Inclusion (informal: in) of all the 'parts' (people).

Ephesians 6:1-4 ESV Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. (2) “Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), (3) “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.” (4) Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger, but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.

Okay so if you want the "result" (OBEDIENCE) then you need to fulfill the "Requirements of the position or profession.


 
 
I abide by the Rules, I perform my duties, and confess my sins when I am wrong, I make restitution for my wrong doings.  I show love in deeds, not just words.  Yet I receive not?  Is it me???  am I not worthy???  Those I 'expect" and request these things from proclaim that they BELIEVE in HIM also, are they not required to live the scriptures too??  am I being judgemental, unloving????  am I misunderstanding.
 
NO!.   But.... this is not my battle to "fix" them.  I MUST continue doing what my Father has instructed me to do, regardless of the outcome.  Teaching is not judged on the students behavior, the student is judged by his own actions.  AS LONG AS THE LESSONS are from the Holy Scriptures and are for HIS PURPOSE!. 
 
If the kitchen skills are not learned.... I taught him. hundreds of times!
 
If the organizational skills and physical care of items is not learned.... I taught him, hundreds of times!...
 
If the truth and loving speach does not come from his lips AND I discipline him, yet he complies not.... I did as I was suppose to and I only have to stay committed and available to be the mother I was made by HIM.
 
Althought I am angered... I WILL NOT sin and lash out in harmful and ugly talk (anymore :), I am human!) I will not grow weary in going good because that is what MY HEAVENLY FATHER and My earthly parents taught me and instruct me to do.  You DO NOT QUIT!  You do not leave, You keep doing what is Right and mind your P's (Perserverance) and Q's (quietism; extinction of the will and worldly interests,  and passive meditation on the divine.)

The Truth Sets you free~~even from yourself!

What they may intend or fashion against you ......HE WILL use it for YOUR good! (Romans 8:28!), and Jeremiah 29:11!  Are about your Comfort and Blessing in your situation.. Cures are good but...He does not promise us that He promises us Comfort, Delivery, Hope and Salvation from lies and sin (even when we are the providers of the lies and sin) believing in others for these things is a sin! and we need to forgive ourselves and let the TRUTH set us free. 

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Today was a rough day AND then my son called from school informing me he was nauseous and needed to come home!  Hit my knees again! okay GOD what are you trying to tell me...

Well, debating if I was going to go... oh who am I kidding, even if he is not "Sick enough to come home" I can't leave him there feeling bad.. I went and picked him up and he seemed surprised I came, I told him I was coming but he was appreciative! (felt alittle bad he had to feel as bad as he looked to APPRECIATE me, but I had prayed something made him realize how much I did for him that "is not in my job description".)

Then the doctor's office called with my lab results.... things I researched and have been asking about for months! (much to everyones irritation and annoyance) and refused to take prescriptions until we were sure there wasn't a "natural remedy".  And the levels were LOW!  my body is lacking in the basics needed to function and yet I have been doing...and now I can't barely speak and function for more than 2 hours.  I said "THIS IS NOT NORMAL, and my cravings would make a pregnant women look at me funny.  Everyone knows that cravings are indications of nutrional needs.  "Can't getting enough" of a certain item is usually a sign of a deficiency.  When you take a multivitamin it helps keep levels within normal ranges but everyone is different and some people show symptoms as the numbers slip to the low side of normal and by the time the DEFICIENCY shows up the body is already struggling. 

Ah..finally an answer! PROOF I knew what I was talking about.. for a moment the anger I had for the last 3 months heated up and exploded and then I thought. Why am I mad at people who "are just doing their job", and are limited in what they can see, and know since they are doing "what they think"? 

Why waste on more minute feeling embarrassed, worried, fearful of what could be, what damage has occurred.?..Why bother on the lateral plane..?

 God knew what was wrong and He guided me through this process for a reason. 

If I was working.. this "recovery would have taken so much longer..
I would not have been able to choose the "Natural plan". 
I would not have rested and gotten the time to read and research. 
I would not have realized the error of my faithless heart and taken back my trust and reliance on people and trying to please others that I had devoted myself to like a job or a twisted relationship that many call "TOXIC". 

Well I detoxed and it only took a few minutes! 
Many have spent years in school and business dealing with medication, nutrition and yet the cannot or will not offer assistance.  "Professionals that want me to pay them won't answer questions or consider modifying THEIR plan for my comfort or enjoyment.  HMMMM...... 

All things are possible! Through Jesus Christ who Strengthens ME!.I do not harbor hard feelings or anger (opposite of love!) hatred, bitterness or whatever, as that is "CLUTTER OF THE HEART, and I am too many years freed from that foolish decision to live with a hard heart and carry around all that extra weight.  Instead, I do what I do best...Repeat myself and scripture.  Ephesians 4:32 shows me this is such a better way, because "IT IS WRITTEN and examples of APPLICATION are also given to me to learn how to do it.

Then..I got on Facebook and found this "Confirmation!"  and saw the path so Brightly shining and KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt!  The lies I was feeding my self.. "I need this person's help"  "I need to talk to someone about this to make sure I am right"  "I need to trust them more, even though they don't seem convinced they are right either"... bound me with my fears, obligations, prior commitments, and with a few pings of wisdom I saw that this was not the RIGHT ANSWER FOR ME! 

It is about me and the only one that truly "WORKS for the good of ME!" is Jesus Christ! 
He will guide me and lead me to "helpers that are filled with the holy spirit" to counsel me and assist me in hearing God's voice and instructions.  They are not going to "TELL me How to do things and that I MUST do things that do not seem right, just to see if they might work. 

Truth is not a spotlight like the car dealers us to draw attention to themselves. Truth is the small candle in a windy night trying to find a lost and scaried animal or to light the way to the kitchen when the power (Earthly solution to darkness) is out. Truth is a product of love and therefore has to contain love, and abide by its character
 (I Corinthians 13:4-10)


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~It IS Written~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*****

This is from one of my favorite "Bible pages on facebook" I Know The Bible Is Right
Be real with yourself........We tell the greatest lies to ourselves until we believe them. Then we walk around living a lie. Romans 1:25 Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen. ~ Eld. Glen Johnson



Do you have some lies chaining you to things, habits, ill feelings??  Set yourself FREE! 

YOU CAN DO IT! Turn it over to God, who is able and Just to see you through the situation.  Remember what he did for victimized, abused and abandoned Joseph...He made him a King, and THE KING over his former brothers who hated, abused and abandoned him, and he had the awesome gift of showing his SUPERIOR CHARACTER by helping his brothers who offended him and to Bless them with the gifts that God had provided him for such a time as this.  Vengence is the Lords, Battles are fought under his command.(Joshua and Jeremiah) But we have body armor if we choose to use it. THE WORD OF GOD is a light unto my path...


I WILL STAND ALONE on the Word of God :).  and toss sweet grapes from the vine that connects us.  :)

Still around and going ...just slower and a bit grumpy and bitter but..

Well .... it has not been a happy time, but I get through the days and sleep at night and get up every day so I guess all in all it is going <<<<<<<.

Still battling the Medical Professionals and "symptoms" and "signs" but the only good thing about the entire process I can say is that I am now absolutely sure I will go onto to get my degree in Nutrition and try to get into Nursing school so that I am in a position to make sure no one else has to go through this mess like I have had to go 20 years with misdiagnosis, underdiagnosis, under cared for and denied alternatives "because it would talk too long and I needed to get something to relieve the symptoms and make me sleep"  (Uh that should have been my decision!) and LIED TO and DISCOUNTED more than being sold for 1/2 price at the Dollar store.  Well, denying and rejecting the truth does not make it anything else but denied and rejected and well I am no stranger to those and I KNOW what I KNOW and I THINK is wrong or needed to correct things too.  I am not going to go to appointments to hear more talk and receive more bad treatments that I HAVE TO PAY for even though I have good insurance benefits. WHY???  because the doctors offices' billing centers and coders submit codes to get them the better reimbursement not what is "TRUE" according to proper coding and CPC standards.  Or the doctors participate but the OFFICE (Facility) is out of network or does not participate and it is not posted.  Just because they "accept and file your insurance" does not mean the insurance payment and adjustment will be accepted.  North Carolina has been so expensive due to the crazy practices and lack of regionalized services.

I have found several confirmations of my "opinion" and am working to get a couple of new books.  But a few books that I found very helpful and encouraging through this "flare up" are:

What Your Doctor May NOT Tell You About Fibromyalgia.  The Revolutionary Treatment That Can Reverse the Disease by R.Paul St. Armand, M.D., and Claudia Craig Marek.  http://www.hachettebookgroupusa.com/    This book was very easy to read and still "meaty" enough for me with "some" knowledge and Medical experience.  Lots of treatment information, a good diet and a treatment plan that holds alot of promise and that I am seriously looking at, once I receive my academy award for the "good patient" and wife letting the Wiser and all knowing Doctors "wait and see how things go".  Our follow up appointment from the "Great Disappointment and Major snuffing" isn't for a few more weeks.....

Psychotherapy in Christian Perspective.  Edited by David G. Benner.  Baker Book House Publishers.
Very informative and helpful in interjecting Biblical principals into the Cognitive, Behavioral and Psychological Treatment areas of counseling and treatment.

Change your Brain Change Your Body by Daniel G. Amen, M.D. (Founder of Amen Clinics, http://www.amenclinics.com/     Very Very interesting and lots of interesting things to look at and Change to improve your overall health.  Really proving the Mind/Body connection.

If you read Health & Wellness Books and have some to share please comment on them, please give the complete title, and author information and a website if available.

Crossing the bridge from thirty to FORTY... and very excited

April 7, 2010

My last day of life as I knew it, ... it is happening the dreaded F..ort..y!. Hogwash... a day with God is never dreaded by me and after the last few years there is NO DOUBT, not a disillusioned or unsure moment that HE IS WITH ME. I was such a "strong and sure" young person, thought I was going to be a missionary for a longtime and one sunday the past preached, if you feel Christ calling you to spread the word, turn to the person to your right and to your left and share the word every step and He will lead you where you are called to be, don't try to pick your place and then expect God to prosper YOUR plans. I was about 8 years old and took it to heart and have tried to do this, it seemed alot easier when I was younger and thought the preacher was talking to everyone in the room and that naturally EVERYONE believed and desired to please and worship God because of the knowledge of what He did for us, by sending His son. It wasn't until I was 14 and met my first person who strongly disagreed and challenged me, my beliefs and I had to look at things differently. Then life got interesting, driving, adolescence, dating opportunities, and just really LISTENING and Watching people and how they talked, cared for others and Lived. I began seeing that I was on a journey without many of the people I had relied on most of my life. The Bible began to be very interesting as I read and tried to "apply" the parables and messages and live by the examples in the Bible. Things got easier and then once again things got interesting, as God granted my prayer for a great guy, cute, family oriented, likely cloaked in believing in Him, (should have specified BAPTIST, ha ha) and God introduced me to a PENTACOASTAL!!! (is this a joke, God I pass out from the thoughts of snakes! and those people are WEIRD!!!!).

God quickly walked me through a few scriptures... "My thoughts are not your thoughts, My ways are not your ways", my life verse became very clear, Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, for good and not for calamity". Turns out my future husband and his family and church were not as weird as I had seen on TV, and luckily they were not the snake handling type. (AMEN).

Life since 1988 has been much like the journey Abraham took, sometimes in circles, sometimes the time seemed to stand still and felt like I was in the desert for years. A few times I began to doubt and moved in the wrong directions and needed the Grace and Love Christ gives us unconditionally and while I traveled I grumbled so that those around me thought it was an earthquake, many times I feared God was going to just give up on me and turn me over to my own stupidity and sinful heart, but I finally learned once we came to North Carolina and met our first "Dispensationalist" and toughest Biblical scholar who refused to "tell you the full answer" and showed me that those verses were not threats and that my salvation was sealed and keep by Christ, because I was not able to clean my sin myself, God provided the way and His ways do not change, are not temporary and are not conditional on us. Just like Abram, our salvation was provided for us, to us, INSPITE of us. and NOTHING we do or do not do can ever change that. Grace is not a get out of jail ticket, it is just the continuation of the love and provision. Our actions still cause all the pain, destruction and bring the consequences but the impact is not the same for us because we WILL ASCEND to God when the time is right. So although life is going to be tough, it is going to have pain and loss, it is just time until life really starts when we get back to the Garden of Eden and can walk and talk with our Creator.

WOW!!!. Good is so good and has taught this "hard-headed and high spirited fool so much in the last 10 years. The best gift next to my salvation, (and my heart throb) is my answered prayer of wisdom and a softened heart. Prayer is the best and most productive thing under heaven, it given us a feeling of power and of the ability to touch someone's hurting heart and life.

I cannot wait to see what the next day, week and years are going to bring and how God chooses to use this vessel He has "fearfully and WONDERFULLY made" He does not make junk, every person was and is wonderful, some just have fallen into the hands of deceitful and corrupted hands that have distorted and damaged the creation Christ made, but back in his hands they can be RESTORED, HEALED AND SHINED TO REFLECT HIM!..

If you want to see baby pictures and some other personal stories and details see "My Story" and Legacy in the works. http://www.storyofmylife.com/User/user_story_list.aspx?Chapterid=5430&UserId=153311

This is a great project and program, it is free for the small storage and indirect link or you can pay a nominal fee and reserve permanent storage of all your information and receive a direct link. Great for geneaologists and historians!. Check it out.

Share what the Lord has done for you :).. If you are going through the desert right now, reach out and be encouraged, if you want to email me privately, send to dotwigg@nc.rr.com if you comment below please leave at least a name I moderate ALL comments so you can write a comment and put **** FOR YOU ONLY DO NOT PUBLISH OR REMOVE EMAIL*** but several have written that they are looking for a friend and would like to receive encouragement and I would like to step up the communications on here.

Thank you for sharing in my journey and for encouraging me.

Sincerely,

Dot

Once I was knock down, trampled and tormented by the devil
with the doubts and lies he would whisper in my ears, until someone cared
enough to open my eyes, ears and heart to HIM again, they prayed
with, for and took me to pray for myself and it made all the difference in the world.
We do not heal, we do not bandage the wounds for longterm, we simple extend the love and get them to HIM for the miracle to happen. HE IS THE ONLY ONE!! who can change, heal and save anyone. His words are all that are needed, learn them, share them and keep them intacted.