April 7, 2010
My last day of life as I knew it, ... it is happening the dreaded F..ort..y!. Hogwash... a day with God is never dreaded by me and after the last few years there is NO DOUBT, not a disillusioned or unsure moment that HE IS WITH ME. I was such a "strong and sure" young person, thought I was going to be a missionary for a longtime and one sunday the past preached, if you feel Christ calling you to spread the word, turn to the person to your right and to your left and share the word every step and He will lead you where you are called to be, don't try to pick your place and then expect God to prosper YOUR plans. I was about 8 years old and took it to heart and have tried to do this, it seemed alot easier when I was younger and thought the preacher was talking to everyone in the room and that naturally EVERYONE believed and desired to please and worship God because of the knowledge of what He did for us, by sending His son. It wasn't until I was 14 and met my first person who strongly disagreed and challenged me, my beliefs and I had to look at things differently. Then life got interesting, driving, adolescence, dating opportunities, and just really LISTENING and Watching people and how they talked, cared for others and Lived. I began seeing that I was on a journey without many of the people I had relied on most of my life. The Bible began to be very interesting as I read and tried to "apply" the parables and messages and live by the examples in the Bible. Things got easier and then once again things got interesting, as God granted my prayer for a great guy, cute, family oriented, likely cloaked in believing in Him, (should have specified BAPTIST, ha ha) and God introduced me to a PENTACOASTAL!!! (is this a joke, God I pass out from the thoughts of snakes! and those people are WEIRD!!!!).
God quickly walked me through a few scriptures... "My thoughts are not your thoughts, My ways are not your ways", my life verse became very clear, Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, for good and not for calamity". Turns out my future husband and his family and church were not as weird as I had seen on TV, and luckily they were not the snake handling type. (AMEN).
Life since 1988 has been much like the journey Abraham took, sometimes in circles, sometimes the time seemed to stand still and felt like I was in the desert for years. A few times I began to doubt and moved in the wrong directions and needed the Grace and Love Christ gives us unconditionally and while I traveled I grumbled so that those around me thought it was an earthquake, many times I feared God was going to just give up on me and turn me over to my own stupidity and sinful heart, but I finally learned once we came to North Carolina and met our first "Dispensationalist" and toughest Biblical scholar who refused to "tell you the full answer" and showed me that those verses were not threats and that my salvation was sealed and keep by Christ, because I was not able to clean my sin myself, God provided the way and His ways do not change, are not temporary and are not conditional on us. Just like Abram, our salvation was provided for us, to us, INSPITE of us. and NOTHING we do or do not do can ever change that. Grace is not a get out of jail ticket, it is just the continuation of the love and provision. Our actions still cause all the pain, destruction and bring the consequences but the impact is not the same for us because we WILL ASCEND to God when the time is right. So although life is going to be tough, it is going to have pain and loss, it is just time until life really starts when we get back to the Garden of Eden and can walk and talk with our Creator.
WOW!!!. Good is so good and has taught this "hard-headed and high spirited fool so much in the last 10 years. The best gift next to my salvation, (and my heart throb) is my answered prayer of wisdom and a softened heart. Prayer is the best and most productive thing under heaven, it given us a feeling of power and of the ability to touch someone's hurting heart and life.
I cannot wait to see what the next day, week and years are going to bring and how God chooses to use this vessel He has "fearfully and WONDERFULLY made" He does not make junk, every person was and is wonderful, some just have fallen into the hands of deceitful and corrupted hands that have distorted and damaged the creation Christ made, but back in his hands they can be RESTORED, HEALED AND SHINED TO REFLECT HIM!..
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Share what the Lord has done for you :).. If you are going through the desert right now, reach out and be encouraged, if you want to email me privately, send to dotwigg@nc.rr.com if you comment below please leave at least a name I moderate ALL comments so you can write a comment and put **** FOR YOU ONLY DO NOT PUBLISH OR REMOVE EMAIL*** but several have written that they are looking for a friend and would like to receive encouragement and I would like to step up the communications on here.
Thank you for sharing in my journey and for encouraging me.
Sincerely,
Dot
Once I was knock down, trampled and tormented by the devil
with the doubts and lies he would whisper in my ears, until someone cared
enough to open my eyes, ears and heart to HIM again, they prayed
with, for and took me to pray for myself and it made all the difference in the world.
We do not heal, we do not bandage the wounds for longterm, we simple extend the love and get them to HIM for the miracle to happen. HE IS THE ONLY ONE!! who can change, heal and save anyone. His words are all that are needed, learn them, share them and keep them intacted.
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