Love is an unfinished Work

When things are hard, lonely, unsettling there is a void, and emptiness that nothing seems to fill longterm. Oh, we try to fill it with all kinds of things and people and when that is not successful we just cover it up with a "poker face, or a happy face. We build a false image to protect our hurt and our hole. When all we need to do it go to Him and submit, ask for the wisdom to commit and keep our vows, right our wrongs, confess our sins. When we are separated from Him, we are disconnected from the flow, become dry and brittle and the hole widens sucking in everything and everyone around us. All relationships suffer when the love (caring, respect, kindness, gentleness) is abstructed. Our fists flail, our hearts harden and our doubled edged sword (tongue) lashes out and wounds.
Love is very simple and the hole can be filled.
The two ends can be securely fastened and "love can flow like a river"

Love is an unfinished Work

Our human emotions are simply amazing, the most powerful feeling we have is Love.
Where does it come from? How do we keep it free flowing like a dove?
God is Love, He loved (John 3:16) therefore we love, He commands us to Love
Love is a gift, given freely and joyfully Sometimes love is a curse and hurts
Love is easy to say, but can be costly is not easy to measure and goes in spurts
Love needs faith to grow, and flow easy Trust comes slowly and is easily broken
Honesty, Respect, Care and Understanding are outward expressions of love
When they are absent, so is love. Love is focused on the receipient at all time
Love is true, and perseveres Love is humble and diligent with to care
Love brought us to the cross, and sometimes brings us to our knees.
When we finally value the relationship more than ourselves, we freely give.
Regardless of what we get, our hearts are able to withstand when in His hand.
Love does not harm, will not quit, always does right, even when we forget to stand.
Love is not perfect but, neither are we, it can be when we live like He said.
When love goes wrong, it only takes a repentant heart to set it back straight.
You are never wrong if you honestly walk in faith, trust in another for this is Love
And were two or more are gathered in my name, I am there also, and give Hope.

We are encouraged that Christ started a work in us which He will continue! --until our death.

I am "just" sleepy and anxious....soon I will be "normal" (ha ha!)

Well.... we are finally coming to the end of all the doctor's visits and testing and all is well (mostly). They have determined that the most significant yet easiest to treat problem is the Anxiety which is moderate with social phobias, http://www.socialphobia.org/whatis.html the Fibromyalgia is causing alot of the pain and sleep disruption, and I have daytime sleepiness (borderline narcolepsy). I should see alot of improvement with most of the issues I have been having now that we are treating the Anxiety. There are some minor health issues but nothing major.

I am kind of relieved to know that many did not know I was having so much trouble. I worked very hard to keep it under raps and laugh it off, but it became increasingly hard to cover and was just taking too much energy and became too isolating. A few dear friends and family members had to put up the the waterworks and constant nervousness and over emotional episodes so they new something was up but, most did not suspect the anxiety, especially not the social anxiety because I am so "talkative" and I was good at hiding it.

Hopefully, in a week or two my mind will regain focus and alertness, I will have energy and some strength and I will be calm (first time in a long time), and rested. Until then the nervousness, over emotionalness, always rechecking myself and asking for reminders will probably remain to keep me on task, but should be less annoying.

Thanks for your patience and understanding.

Thanks for all the Support, Encouragement and Prayers :)

Walking around in circles......

Have you ever had those days where you weren't really sure what was going on, three or four things that would set the day were not set so everything was kind of on hold? Well,

I am having a few months of those days and well to be honest, I am not really "settled" about it!
The song Hanging in a Moment, by Lifehouse (see the "MOMENTS" post) really says it all. I am not moving until I am sure! He will move me, until then I am Hanging and wondering..?????

Before I go on...

I know I am not a teapot and this is not a venting session.
I am praying about it! and I do know God is in control and I am okay with that (mostly)

I am waiting and I have friends praying for direction, discernment, WISDOM and PATIENCE to come to me Next DAY AIR!!! but, in the mean time I am just wondering...

"why is all the biblical stuff so complicated now and so much doctrinal differences that talking about the bible is all open to interpretation" (Scarry!!!) "Law, Grace, Love, Commandment, Living are all very different ideals among the different doctrines and donominations. In the olden days, when I was small the BIBLE was the BOOK of Answers and brought us closer to God because He (Christ) was the Word and the Word was with Him (GOD) John 1:1. The Bible was the road map, the encouragement, the rules of the games people play, the role model, the fairy tales that we were to focus on to keep our minds right and on the eternal thoughts. Why has this changed? Now most people quote some theologian or author's book about the bible instead of actually quoting the scriptures. So many interpretations, so many views, so many misinterpretations and so much confusion.

Are we no longer ONE body moving in ONE direction and following ONE GOD (JESUS CHRIST!) ? does everyone else really KNOW what they are "called to do" "and are they doing what they are called to do" ,"are all these ministries and projects for eternal goals" "are we really Loving like Jesus, with all these people I am running into that are so beaten, angry, defeated and orphaned"?.

Is it really cheap grace to show someone that they can soak all their wounds, all their sacrafices, all their failures, all their fears, all their .... in the blood of Jesus and Walk across the great void they see in the "World" to cross over to ertnal life (John 3:16), use the Cross which they believe Jesus Christ died on by order of GOD the Father to atone of all the sins of the world past, present and future, and that his raising and ascending to the Father is the hope that one day we will too. The cross is our pathway, it is the "yoke" that Christ uses to share the burden with us. The Bible says, Salvation comes by grace, and Faith by believing.

So... if you believe in Jesus Christ and have faith, hope and joy through Him, should most of your thoughts, ambitions, plans, dreams be toward bring others into the knowledge of Him, and helping those that had this knowledge rekindle it once the burdens shifted and they stumbled under the weight, or dropped their yoke and ventured off the path.

Christ layed down his LIFE for us, shouldn't we lay down ourselves, our .... to do "the work of the Father" ? Shouldn't it break our hearts to see a brother or sister in the desert, wandering or running away from GOD? Shouldn't we call out to our brother or sister and show them the love and concern?

Should of, Could have, Would have..... too late! We are loosing the opportunities.. People are passing away.. We don't always get a second chance.. and we never know which word opens the calloused and bruised heart and reminds them to look up and see Jesus, once they open their heart Christ can take it from there. All they have to do is CALL UPON THE NAME OF JESUS!

And if we are not working in the spirit (Holy not ours) we can say the wrong thing and close off the heart and ears and seal that person in the bitterness. Oh be careful what you say! Pray for the Spirit to lead, guide and prepare the heart for the right words to touch it.

Moments (A home video too)

Whew.. it has been a whirlwind since New Years Day, I cannot believe it is already the end of March. A year has flown by, it was right around this time last year that I realized many things were changing. I am not a big fan of change, am slow to acclamate and was not very agreeable about the things I saw changing and how they were going to change. But as is ALWAYS the case, God knew best, and He brought us to these situations and He brought us through them with flying colors.

I made a video of pictures that accompany the song that got me through the last year, "Hanging for a Moment" by Lifehouse. For those that don't know, I was a natural blonde. The pictures have been arranged to accompany the lyrics so the dates are shuffled and I go back and forth from Redhead (present day) to Blonde. My favorite verses; Jeremiah 29:11 and Romans 8:28, are diffinitely evident in these pictures and this song is a perfect soundtrack for them too.